Do I know Jesus!

My first response to that question would be "absolutely". But recently I realized sometimes the Jesus I think I know and the Jesus who is, is not the same person. As I'm learning more and more about scripture it is clearly evident Christ was fully man and fully God. However, in the past I have had difficulty seeing Him as both at the same time. I don't know if that makes sense or not, but for some reason my brain has not been able to grasp the two in one concept. I have always separated the two---Jesus/man and Jesus/God because it was just easier to take in. When looking at Jesus as human---I see his emotions of weeping, righteous anger, love, laughter, and joy. But when looking at Jesus as God----I see Him as King, Judge, and Savior.  There are many other words for Him but these are a few that are top of mind!  His ways are not my ways so fully understanding this probably will not happen for this simple minded girl from the South!  However, I want to seek to know Christ so this is the reason for this post!  My desire is to live a life that is as Christlike as possible but is that possible?  Christ was without sin, but in my human flesh I am full of sin so how can I be like Christ?  The only way is to be renewed by the Spirit! Which can only happen when I allow the Spirit to guide me and help refine me until my race here on earth is finished.  The only way to know the ways of the Spirit is to study the scriptures. We have such an incredible gift that our Father has given us, but how often do we use it?  I hate to admit this but I don't study my Father's words like I should!  The world has a way of eating me up and I have a way of letting it!  Please God help me to find a more disciplined love for knowing you and what you have told me through your words!  If left to myself I would be destroyed but because Christ loved me so much He was willing to be made into human flesh so He could die for me and anyone who believes in Him and then give us new life!  I no longer desire the sins of the past but I now desire holiness!  I must first seek God's kingdom of righteousness before anything can be added to me.  This I have heard and this I will do!